IT was late in the evening and I was all hot and sweaty. Still
in my workout outfit, I was walking home from the gym and suddenly
it dawned on me – I was settled.
I had been living in Myanmar for about six weeks and had constantly
been asked, “Are you settled yet?”
Sometimes I answered yes, sometimes no. But the truth was that
I had no idea. What does settled mean? Calm? Adjusted? Acclimated?
No, after six weeks living in Myanmar none of those adjectives
applied to me yet.
And then – one evening – just returning home from
the gym. Doing something so mundane, something I have done in
the States and could do anywhere.
Going to the gym is not something I do when I am a tourist inspecting
a new country.
It is part of a routine, an aspect of daily life. Something
that makes me feel at home.
I love travelling, but the feelings of excitement and over-stimulation
are entirely different from those of making a home.
And it is those very routines that I will miss most when I leave
Myanmar.
I will miss going to Choice Café before work in the morning.
It is not a particularly special restaurant, and all I usually
order is fruit and coffee.
But I love that when I walk in the waitresses recognise me and
shout “Mingalabar!” I love that before I look at the
menu they say, “Fruit – no papaya?”
When I leave my job I will miss my daily chats with the editors
who sit next to me. I’ll miss listening to them joking in
Myanmar, even though I never have any clue what they are saying.
I’ll miss them reading internet articles aloud and asking
me how to pronounce weird English or Spanish words.
I’ll miss that every time the receptionist calls to say
one of their eh the (guests) has arrived, I tell them their a
they leh (sweatheart) is here, and we all laugh out loud.
I guess those are just silly things about life in Myanmar –
or maybe life in general – but they are what makes it home.
And when I return in years to come, I can always visit Shwedagon
or go shopping at Bogyoke Aung San market, but it will not be
the same.
I still have three months left in Myanmar. But suddenly it is
dawning on me that I am not only settled, I’m happy here.
And when I pack my bags to leave, no matter how many pictures
I have taken or memories I have created, it will never be home
again.